blog thoughts turn sour

So here it is.  I havent really blogged in forever and when I do its small or has become a blue moon kind of thing.  I have thought of lots of things to write.  But nothing that was happy fun.  When I think of things to share I have a sour thought put to it.

What I mean is...well weeks maybe a few months back ppl started to plan my High School 10th reunion.  Well I felt bummed.  I knew E and I wouldnt get to go.  I want to be there and be apart of it and then a thought hit me.  Why?  I didnt like High School like a lot of ppl did.  I feel sorry for myself because part of me realizes that the reason a lot of ppl cherished there days in High School is because they made it that way.  They made sure to make the memories and do things to experience.  I did not.  I hated it. I couldnt get out of High School fast enough.  I was just there to do my school work and be done with it.  Lets face it I enjoyed my elementary days much better.  I had many friends that I talked to in the halls or in the classroom but none of them were enough to do something outside of school.  Kind of like how FB is I can have hundreds of friends but there just my FB talk to friends.  So I thought why would I want to go..I am sure no one will even remember who I am.  I never did anything that was big enough to impact someone for them to remember me.  I know for some its to show off how big there diamond is or how fancy there car is and how much they still look stunning.  If I went it would be just to show off how I married the best man anyone could ever dream of having.  Plus if any and maybe a lot would remember who he was one of the biggest crushes everyone in the elementary to JR high days had.  Just the thought of him talking to you would make you weak at the knees.  Yup I got him and even better he actually loves me and treats me like a dream.  SIGH yeah I am married to him, Ethan Thomas Huchton.  (I was just telling him how I am spoiled that after 4 years of being in a relationship I still get told im beautiful just about everyday).

So see I thought I better stick to not posting for awhile because I had a feeling no one really wanted to know my bitterness of certain things in life.  Dont worry these thoughts didnt cause my day to be sour too.  All I have to do is think of this wonderful man I married and all of our beautiful amazing kids and what joy they bring us and those negative thoughts slip away!