Dreams

I have so many dreams of my beloved Aunt Ruthie.  I thought maybe they were worth sharing.  I at these dreams gifts.  Making her still apart of my life even though she is no longer with us.  Some dreams are lessons, guidance and in away letting me know she will continue to watch over us.

Ill be collecting a few before this post goes live.

I dont remember much details.  But it was ice cold outside.  Snowing.  In a dangerous kind of way.  Snow storm or something.  I was with 2-3 other ppl.  I dont recall there faces.  We were in a ware house of sorts and made a run for a van.  The la Cha Cha van.  I knew we would be safe and make it out.  Ruthie's van was the safe haven.  She was always prepared.  I dont know what the issue was but I began looking in each drawer.  I knew it would be there.  I knew she would have it.  She was always prepared!  (I have no idea what I was actually looking for)  I remember thinking thank goodness her van has a bathroom and shower.  And generator.

As I wake from these dreams a lot drifts out of my thoughts.

I remember being in a grocery store.  Walmart/ Target type.  Me and someone else.  Killing time.  Ruthie was with my mom.  They were at a Dr appointment for my Aunt.  It was taking forever.  Some delay.  We ended up meeting them and a Vietnamese place to eat Pho!!( I had no idea what Pho was til coming to FL)

A SN from the dreams...I just started to re-read a series its 10+ years old.  Growing up, during the summers one of the things we would do is go to the LDS bookstore after visiting the temple.  It was so much fun and they had lots of little kid friendly things you would want but also books.  My older sister picked this book up.  She read it.  I think she had it for a year or more before handing it over to me to read.  I fell in love with this series.  But not only did I love it, my sister, and Ruthie.  It was so much fun talking about these books with the 2 of them.

Ruthie, Stacey and I.  We were inside my apartment.  We had the twins and Thomas with us.  We were picking out clothes for them to wear before heading to my moms for her famous breakfast.  It was fun.  We were taking our time, talking, laughing.  I had  a full stocked closet of clothes for the girls.  I was picking up outfits and asking Ruthie which ones.  I had picked up two different kinds.  Both were a fancy dress.  We decided not those because we were going to eat and they'd get messy.  I ended up pulling 2 black leggings with designs on them and going for a drawer with shirts.

My mom, Stacey and I were in the kitchen of Ruthie/Steffie's home.  Stacey was on the phone.  I believe she was talking to Steffie.  I was searching the freezer and the side pantry.  I was looking for sweets to take on the road with me.  Jessica (our cousin) walking giving hugs and kisses, came to take my mom to the store.  (ruthie was actually present in this dream but being in her home speaks volumes in itself.)