On days that I venture out on some errands with the Hubs, I sit as he drives and we listen to music to one store to another and I reflect on the day or morning events. I tend to do that. Especially at night. I do this for many reasons. But for one in particular I memorize and enjoy and cherish life! Now this year E and I have known each other for 18 years. But since being in a relationship, I get surprised at how happy I am frequently. I am not just content or have that in the back of your head feeling of settling for someone (which I have done). In my last marriage I ended up hiding part of myself. I am sure I could fill a few blogs on why, but that doesnt really matter. I ended up not expressing myself or telling things or feeling joy. I just lived. With E I have been able to do all that. I enjoy my life, usually every night before bed we have our quiet time to tell each other things, desires, wants, needs, ect and I dont have to hide my opinion I get to express myself (im not afraid too, I can say things to him knowing he may not like it and im not scared of his reaction, plus the expressing happy things, he gets to be happy with me or for me). I also have been able to be silly. Dancing and singing, the type of things you dont usually do when anyone is home. Yeah E see's me do that all the time and we laugh.
I wouldnt want anyone to settle or think that this is as good as it will ever be. I have done that and I am so blessed that I was still able to find my soul-mate. I hope all the single people do not give up on there fairy tale ending because it is real.
I cant tell you enough how E has been my rock and how he has done for me what I could never do for him ( as much as I wish I could say that I would have done the same for him were the roles reversed (in the beginning of our relationship)I am not completely sure I could have) I mentioned of fb not to long ago, how he told me that it doesnt matter that I could or couldnt do that for him, thats not what he needed and how I am in my own way exactly the person he needed when he needed it the most. I cant express enough in words how amazing it is that we fit each other. My mom told me once that we needed to be with the person that makes us feel good about each other and how that person makes you wanna be a better person and brings out the best in you. Ethan and I do that for each other.
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